Tangles & Ties: Chapter 89: Breaking Ties

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Nandini worked in the hospital till 8 pm. Despite it being her off day, she was called and given extra work. But for the first time, she was not complaining. She was glad that she could get this time away from home, her in-laws and Manik.

For the entire duration, she didn’t let her mind wander towards them or else she would have cried. Instead, her sole focus was to stabilize the emergency patients and healing ones.

After being free at night, she went directly to the Bangalore Hospital to track medical response in Latika’s case. She was out of danger but still unconscious. She talked to the concerned doctor on duty and met Manoj, who was staying there at night.

“Manik just left. He didn’t want to go but I sent him. He is at home with Trisha and Gayu.”

Nandini nodded, took his blessings, threw a glance at Latika and felt sorry for her, before leaving the hospital.

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It was almost 11 pm by the time she reached home. She didn’t have her set of keys. So she pressed the bell.

Manik opened the door and stepped aside. Nandini entered without saying anything and went directly inside the kitchen to get water for her.
No smile. No greetings. No hug.
On normal days, she would grin at the sight of him and step forward to hug him as soon as she returned home. Today, she was more like a stranger.

She brought a water bottle from the refrigerator and dumped her handbag on the dining table before unscrewing the cap,looking at something on the table…basically on nothing… for she was so lost that she didn’t know what she was staring at. Manik slowly followed her inside after locking the door.

He didn’t know how to begin talking to Nandini. But he had to. She was broken and he was responsible for that and he was even aware of that. He couldn’t allow her to drift into a space where it became difficult to communicate with her. Communication had been the key to their relationship till now. They couldn’t afford to lose that connection.

He cleared his throat to distract her. Her eyes drifted towards him.

He said, “Trisha and Gaurvi had food and they are sleeping right now. Papa insisted that I should bring them back from the hospital.”

She almost murmured, “Hmm…”

“You must be tired too. Food is in the kitchen.”

She didn’t reply to that and drank water from the bottle. He continued, “Mom is fine but still unconscious. Papa wanted to stay with her. So, I came back.”

Nandini replied in a low, soft voice, “I talked to the doctor. Everything is fine, it seems. They will keep her n observation for 48 hours and if all is well, they will discharge after 2 days…”

Before he could say anything, she added on a choked throat, “I’ll leave after 2 days.” Her words were like sharp-pointed stabs through his chest. Painful. Tearing. Suffocating. Constricting him so that he couldn’t breathe anymore, but before he could speak, she walked away without even looking at him.

Manik was left near the dining table, shattered and lost, while Nandini went inside the bedroom, took out a change of clothes and occupied the washroom for the next 20 minutes. She had to shower and brush and change and more than anything she had to cry, hiding her face in her palms, masked behind the sound of gushing water from the shower.

What Manik had said was neither casual nor easy to get over. She didn’t know if she would ever get over this. But crying her heart out was a release… and a relief… after all the hardwork of maintaining a straight face dealing with one responsibility after the other, with the family, with unknown patients at the hospital, dealing with attendants, she didn’t get time to cry and grieve her loss.

Manik went inside the bedroom and sat on the bed, waiting for Nandini. He knew that she was devastated. She needed him but he didn’t know how to hold her, support her and ask her to cry over his shoulder – he had burnt that bridge himself.

After nearly twenty minutes, Nandini stepped out, brushing her hair to dry them with a towel, looking like a dove in a white sleeveless cotton button-down top and light grey ankle-length skirt. She wiped her hair dry and without looking at Manik, she went out of the bedroom, leaving him there.

She went to the living room, sat on the floor and cuddled Dobby who had been waiting for her attention since morning. She noticed that Manik had fed him. So, she cleaned him, cleaned the area where he slept and finally, she went to the couch to sit – she folded her legs up, buried her chin on her folded knees and hugged the legs to sit for a long time in this comfortable posture, thinking about how suddenly their lives had changed during the course of one day and how she had felt as if someone pulled the floor under her feet to push her down from the seventh sky, straight on the ground.
It hurt. Very much.

She didn’t know how long she sat there but the sound of the cuckoo clock in the living room buzzed for one bell… that means it was 1:00 am.

After a few minutes, Manik came out of the bedroom and came inside the living room. He had been waiting for her inside the bedroom. And when she didn’t come back, he decided to check on her.

He walked out and when he saw her quiet and motionless, he leaned by the living room wall and observed her quietly. Then he said in a low voice, “Nandini…”

She didn’t move much. In the same posture, face rested on the folded knees and arms hugging the upfolded legs, she just turned her face to look at him, with blank and distant eyes.

He was not his usual self. His ruffled hair, his one-day-old stubble and dried lips added to the gloom of his puffy tired eyes. He had dropped tears too. His face looked drained. It didn’t appear that he had eaten anything. He looked tired, broken, dejected and guilty.

To top it, he was the big brother and older child in this family. Even after so much had happened, he must be living his duties of the good child, taking care of his family at the hospital and older brother, bringing back and feeding his little sisters and Dobby. He looked as if he didn’t have the release that she had a moment ago in the washroom. Her heart tore at that. She pressed her lips as she looked at him with moist eyes.

He felt like his throat had dried and he was tongue-tied. He struggled and then he managed to speak, “Nandu… I’m feeling so nervous and lost…”

She closed her eyes once, hoping that her tears will stop at that, but they didn’t. She opened them again and straightened herself, lifting her head up. In a warm, reassuring tone, she whispered, “You can talk to me!”

He sighed in relief. She used the back of her hand to wipe her tears and he sat beside her on the couch, lifting his feet up too. Holding his legs with his arms around them and feet on the couch, he let a few moments pass to gather his thoughts in one place. He didn’t know what to say, what to share and how to let it out. He couldn’t believe it that she had allowed him to talk to her and was now sitting patiently beside him, listening to him.

He leaned backward, to tuck his back at the wall behind him, as he sighed deeply, “I didn’t know whom to talk to… I’m feeling so lost… I’ve never felt like this before…”

“Felt like?” She asked in a low, soft voice.

He shrugged, looking at the wall at a distance, the window and the dream catcher, and said, “Like, I’ve lost everything in one day…I’ve always seen life as success and failure…projects and deadlines… and this one incident shook me… life is much beyond that shallowness… failure is nothing in front of this loss… where at one moment you have everything in life and the very same day, a few moments later, you’ve lost everything… you stand blank, wondering what happened… did it happen with you? Is it really true? Suddenly everyone was a stranger to me… I had no one to talk to… no one to turn to… and my mind is so clogged and cluttered right now… that it is going to blast.”

She pressed her lips and leaned by the wall too, with a deep sigh. Her head was tucked to the wall and her small hands rested on her knees.

He continued, “I feel like my entire life was a lie… what I was thinking and what I believed was a sham… I just assumed things… and went on believing that. Just to avoid getting hurt, I distanced myself from my mother who perhaps needed me the most at that time. I never realised…” His throat choked.

Nandini turned her face to look at him. His eyes were red and teary. Tears rolled down his eyes as he continued to speak after a pause, “My mom used to find solace in Gaurvi because she stayed more with her and I thought that she loves her more. I had developed that little envy and hated her for that. To get my attention, she used to taunt me and make me feel low… I felt like whatever I did was not enough for her… to avoid attacks on my self-esteem, I stayed at a distance and those attacks increased because that was my mom’s cry for help… we grew closer to Meera masi … she loved us so much, unconditionally… without asking anything in return… and she didn’t have kids…so it was us for her to focus… I didn’t know that it depressed mom… it became so complicated that I stopped feeling close to mom… I love her, I care for her…but I couldn’t share my problems with her like I did with Meera masi… or now… with you…”

Nandini spoke softly, “You were so distant that you didn’t realise when she stopped trusting you too. She knew that you were close to masi and that is why she fought with masi…”

“And tried to commit suicide after dad told her that she was wrong. I can’t believe it that dad can be so irresponsible…” His words became suddenly bitter and angry, so much that he clasped fingers of his hands, “How can he take it so casually??… He didn’t even inform me?? Mom could have died on those two instances… I could have lost her… forever…”

He stopped speaking as his throat choked. He dipped his face low and pressed his lips as his tears continued to fall. He kept speaking, “If I knew… I could have helped her… got her treated… listened to you when you were speaking about it… I would have been more accepting…”

Nandini kept wiping her tears and pressed her lips hard. Manik was so hurt that he didn’t know how to hold himself. For the first time in life, his emotions had overwhelmed him. What he had been avoiding for his entire life, he had to face it so harshly… a brush with heartbreak… in the most ruthless way, possible.

Nandini’s heart broke for Manik too. The fact that she loved him more than everything else, was undeniable. She wished she could take his pain too. Manik closed his eyes and covered his face in his palms. After a moment, he spoke again, taking a deep breath, “I’m such a loser at relationships… I don’t know how to deal with people… I messed up… I messed up big time… My family… mom… dad… you… I’ve hurt everyone…”

Nandini couldn’t restrain herself. She stretched her hand towards him and pressed his shoulder, warmly and reassuringly. Her tiny, delicate hands were so soft, so full of love that he could hold no more. On an impulse, he turned to her and buried his face over her shoulder, letting go his stream of tears. He held her strongly. She was startled. Instinctively, she raised her other hand to place it on his head, softly stroking it.

“I’m so sorry, Nandu… so sorry… you were only trying to help… but I was not ready to listen. And when you insisted, everyone heard it… it went out of hand after mom got angry and walked out on us… I felt guilty… I couldn’t handle my emotions… I didn’t realise that I was taking my anger out on you… I was so angry that I couldn’t control…”

She closed her eyes. They were already hurting and reddened and overflowing with tears. She wished she could say something to console him. But she had no words. She stroked his head lovingly.

They talked for a long time. Manik was worried that Latika was still unconscious. Nandini told him that it was because she was dehydrated and hypotensive. She would gain consciousness at any time. Manik told her about his childhood and how he used to judge his mom for being partial, for being careless, for preferring Gaurvi, for her mood swings upsetting others. Nandini told him about her chacha who was almost similar but more on the manic side of the spectrum and not on the depressive side. He was a health freak, a runner, a Chartered Accountant and successful in life, contrary to public belief that loneliness and failure were the reasons for his suicide.

Manik lay his head on Nandini’ s shoulder and stretched himself. He kept talking. He had never talked so much in his entire life. He just wanted to be with her and to stop talking was to break the connection. Nandini was his ultimate saviour and peace. She was home to him.

When the sunrays fell on the window glass and birds started chirping, they realised that it was morning already.

“Is it morning? So soon?”

“It’s 5:30 am.” She informed him.

“We were talking for the entire night?” He asked, straightening himself, feeling much better.

“Yeah!” She sighed softly. Slowly, she stretched herself and got down the couch.

Manik was observing her. She might have talked to him for the entire night, from 1- 5:30… she might have listened to him, gave him support… she might have held him and sat by him as strong support… but she was not his Nandini anymore. She had changed.

She was not talking more than she should. She was not excited about the morning or the birds. About how scared she was last night, the way he said that. She was not even smiling. She was replying in monosyllables and gestures or small sentences. She was more reserved than ever before. In fact, she wasn’t reserved even on the first day when they met each other… All of it was painful to accept and he hoped that it was a temporary phase.

“Where are you going?” He asked when she moved away.

“I need to get ready. I have to reach the hospital by 8:00 am.” She collected her hair in a bunch and made a loose, casual bun at the nape of her neck.

“Oh Gossh!!! Why didn’t you tell me? You should have slept, na!”

“It’s okay!” She smiled lightly and was about to go to the corridor that led to the bedroom when he stopped her. She stopped, “What?”

Manik approached her and asked, “You didn’t sleep last night too. Will you be able to manage?”

She shrugged, feeling uncomfortable at his concern for the first time. She didn’t like him asking her about her sleep. She tried to dismiss the discussion, “I’ll manage an hour or two of sleep at the hospital, don’t worry!”

He pressed his lips, looking at her vulnerable baby face and puffed eyes, her creamy skin and silky hair… everything about her was so delicate and soft… her heart was softer than everything else…why he couldn’t notice all this before speaking yesterday… how could he say all that…

She raised her brows, “Hmm?”

Hesitatingly, he picked up a curl of her hair and pushed it behind her ear, letting his fingers graze through his skin, touching and caressing her, “Thank you. For holding me and listening to me, last night.”

“Hmm!” She nodded, and turned away, “I need to go.”

“Nandu, one second…”

“Yeah?” She stopped and turned again.

Hopefully and keeping his voice optimistic, he asked, “I apologised to you, yesterday night. And I will apologise for as many times as you say… can I hope… for you to forgive me?”

She opened her mouth to speak when he stopped her by placing his hand before her.

“Wait… if you don’t want to forgive… that is fine too…you can punish me. I’ll do whatever you say and take any amount of punishment…please don’t be angry with me… please???”

She nodded and said, “I’m not angry, Manik. And I can’t punish you… coz I understand… I know why you did that…why you were so angry… if I was in your place and my parents had left my home because of you, I would have been super angry… I would have thrown tantrums and fought with you strongly… so I understand…please don’t apologise anymore … your outburst was natural.”

He heaved a sigh of relief and smiled. His hand lowered from her face to her hand as he grasped her hand in his own, warmly and lovingly, “I was so scared that you will be angry and hurt…”

She wasn’t smiling. She removed her hand from his hold softly, surprising him. Then she spoke patiently, “Manik, I said that I am not angry because I understand the outburst. I never said that I am not hurt. I AM hurt… and it is not because you shouted at me or fought with me… I would have done the same… but the main difference between me and you is that I would have never said that it’s over between us… it’s a marriage… not a joke… that you can end it over a bad temper…”

He didn’t understand what she wanted to say. But she worried him. He waited for her to finish when she dropped the final bomb, “I’ve forgiven your anger… your not trying to understand my point of view… your harsh words because you were hurt too…but what shattered me was that how easy it was for you to say that I can leave the house and you… and go away…”

He now understood the gravity of the situation and knew that it wasn’t easy to get something back that you pushed away so mercilessly. He tried to explain, almost nervous and panic-stricken, “Listen, Nandu… it’s not like…”

“Like what?… I would have accepted fights…every couple fights… I would have accepted blaming me for destroying you… yes, for a moment, it happened due to my words…I would have accepted telling me that you hated me…it would have been momentary outburst… but I can’t accept that we wasted our time in the last 4 months because this relationship is so fickle that it can end like that… Manik, all these days you were just ‘thinking’ and made me believe too that I was close to you.. whereas, I am at the same place as once your family was… as your ex-girlfriend…as Dhruv… as anyone who threatens to hurt you… they are pushed away, out of your life… you did the same with me… you will do it again…and again… every time we fight… ” Her tears kept dropping down, “Manik, you don’t trust people, you don’t trust relationships… you were right… you don’t need people in your life. If they are there, you can tell them to f*ck off as and when it suits you!” Her face hardened with that, while her tears fell down, wetting her cheeks.

He was at loss of words. He didn’t know what to say. After a moment, he whispered, “I’m sorry!”

“Manik… I can’t live with you, anymore… You have broken my faith in this relationship!”

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119 Comments Add yours

  1. Anonymous says:

    I was unable to read this story for almost 5 mobths… And now I read almost 15 parts in not even 2 days…. I am attached with your story but circumstances was not allowing me to even read it… I read it silently without thinking like you need any explanation.. because I am one of millions of your readers… But after reading this, I felt like I should apologize…. But again I can’t describe my feelings in words..m

    1. Manita V says:

      Come on… no one needs to apologize.
      I never ask people to comment or like. That’s not what I write for 🙂
      I’m glad you liked it.

  2. Prabha Returi says:

    What should I say, a very emotional update and I totally agree with Nandu and I have seen this before where people break ties so easily as if it is not a big deal. And later on, apologies don’t mean anything as the hurt and pain the other goes thru cannot be revoked no matter what. Beautifully written Manita as always.

  3. stelitoes11 says:

    Beautifully written, overwhelming emotions loved it

  4. Unnati Limbachiya says:

    I can’t explain it’s very painful

  5. Deepa says:

    So emotional and so painful situation. Nandini ka point sahi hai

  6. hey di will you update today

    1. Manita V says:

      Yes… going to update…

  7. gauti reshsha says:

    Hi di when are you gonna update.. eagerly waiting..

  8. Tanusree Saha says:

    Hey.. Manvita di.. When are you gonna update the chapter?

  9. tej1993 says:

    As always u are just wonderful!!!
    Thought not the right place to ask for but please could let me know when will u update Fire and Ice here please please??? I just love the story and so eagerly waiting to read it….

    1. Manita V says:

      I’m taking one story at a time. So, others are offline. I will announce when I begin to update others.
      Thanks for all the love 🙂
      Stay blessed!

  10. Rajni Singh says:

    Loved how u portrayed Nandini’s outburst..
    It was too emotional.
    Eagerly waiting to see Manik’s reaction to Nandini’s last statement.
    Stay blessed and happy

  11. Chendubundu says:

    This was so heavy!!!😭😭 I had tears all thru while I was reading…Cant comment much today…hmmmm..will read it again later and see if I will be able to put in my thoughts sorry 🙁 just cant feel bad for Nandu…faith and trust are the 2 most important things in a relationship, love without these cant stand long… felt the same way after Manan breakup after Soha’s in Kyy

    must have been exhausting for you to write such and emotional chapter…

  12. gauti reshsha says:

    An outburst us fine in a marital relationship but not at this level where Manik just spurted out too many unnecessary things…i dunno di how you will take maniks character but definitely he should realise the worth of Nandini…not any woman in his life was like Nandini and he should understand her importance..hope they solve their differences and come out more stronger and beautiful…i was wondering where was the Manik who promised that he will be always with her at any circumstances during their initial phase..it really hurts to see them like this..such a beautiful emotional update…also hope Latika comes out healed and the family give the space what manan needs right now…thumbs up…as usual a splendid n fantabulous update…read it almost 25 times..

  13. kshamaapurva says:

    She is deeply hurt….. Hope she will consider giving chance to their relationship with assuring her dignity. Nandu… please don’t leave 😫

  14. Sowmiya says:

    It’s was really awesome. The way you’re expressing nadhini ‘s point of view was great.
    I am waiting for your next update

  15. pavanirr says:

    Loved nandini’s outburst now eagerly waiting to read how manik will make things right. I read all your stories di each update of your stories are amazing and exciting it makes me want to read more and more.

  16. Anonymous says:

    Omg this is really a shock seeing them in this phase but it’s life we unexpected things and also this may strength the relationship but I feel nandini is right in her place like in real life also it is very easy for a guy to end relationship forgetting the bond and everything but this chapter touched my heart.

  17. Isha says:

    What nandini said is justified! Trust if once broken can never be same again.. and relations once broken can’t be same again. No matter how you crave or miss the person,sometimes you are better without them 🙂

  18. manini20 says:

    Nandinies outburst is justified…too emotional tht was….she is so pure hearted….manik dont lose ur love…

  19. Tanvie Sharma 🌼 says:

    For the first time, the name of the chapter scared me.
    Ohh.. I can’t watch them going through so much pain. I know manik was completely wrong. Nandanj is hurt but I never thought she would decide on giving up on their relationship like this, knowing well how unbearable it is going to be for both of them.
    Manik is never going to forget this situation in his life. They say “the situations that you keep avoiding or running from the most, will meet you in a way at the most unpredictable time of your life” Manik always avoided these situations all his life and now he had no idea how to handle them. At last we can only wait and read to know what’s ahead for them.
    Thanks for the update Di!!!
    Stay blessed❤

  20. Sudha Tammana says:

    Every word nandini is like I spoke especially at the end though different relationship but yes once faith is lost then it is lost

  21. pixiepari says:

    To be frank…you deserve this manik !!! Its not a joke that you can say her to get out of your life whenever you wish…we may not understand the gravity of the situation but we need to know that our words can actually turn our world upside down

  22. Anonymous says:

    Nandini is correct

  23. Anonymous says:

    Nandini is correct. He should understand the importance of their relationship particularly.

  24. sarswati rajendra suryawanshi says:

    Nandini have one complaint against manik and that is his trust issues regarding any relationship. Whenever there is trouble in relationship he closes himself and let the person go. That’s what he did with his mother, his ex, dhruv and now nandini. He closed himself from any kind explanation and dint fight at all to be together or save the relationship. But I guess he learned his lesson. He nearly lost his mother and nandu. But now he will fight for them. He will hold on to nandu tightly. He won’t let her go from his life. I guess he will first mend his relationship with his mother. Which is very important as she is first and foremost and then nandu. He will chase her to the end of the world after reunion with his mother. And seeing him fighting for all relationship she will forgive him.

  25. ekta Semwal says:

    3T’s (Temper , Thoughts & Tongue)are most dangerous for our life .. What our mind think and we speak when we are angry destroy everything in a moment.. Manik & Nandani are experiencing it right now… Nandani inspite of knowing , Manik’s issues with relationship , trusted him . In a way it’s good that this happened coz now Manik will come out of his shell completely , and will work on winning Nandani ‘s trust back.. Beautiful update 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

  26. krinal310 says:

    I loved the way you portrayed nandini’s pov..she is right at her place and i am more eager to know what’s in the store for both of them…lots of love dii ❤️

  27. When I clicked on the chapter name, I knew it was going to be difficult for me to read it when I saw the title itself but I couldn’t stop myself.
    You have described Nandini so subtly here. The way she has been so supportive to Manik even after he hurt herso much has all my heart and I truly feel, that her sensitivity is her strength. The way she handled Manik and listened to all that he had to say needed a lot of strength after all that she went through the other day.
    About Manik, the guy is broken. Since childhood he had craved for his mother’s love and when he saw his mother siding Gaurvi more, his little baby heart assumed that he wasn’t important for his mother. As years passed, he started building walls around himself to protect him and he started becoming immune to other’s feelings and thus when his walls broke, he was lost and as a result all his bottled frustration was released on the safest option he had around him, Nandini. Yes he did take her for granted but I am glad he at least knows where he went wrong and I hope he rectifies it soon cuz I can’t see them staying away from each other for long. The chapter was amazingly written and I loved it as always!

  28. Bidisha Mohanty says:

    This is right,totally.I understand what Manik must have went through when his parents left the house but that no where gives him the position to say anything according to his whim and fancy that too something as big as “everything is over between us” . Fights are normal between a couple but that doesn’t mean one gets to say anything and blame it on the situation.One should always remember that words once said,can never be taken back.

    But it’s so difficult at the same time to see Manik in such pain.Honestly,am having a heavy heart right now.Your characterisation is beyond words Di.Its amazing.

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you …. It means so much to me when it comes from other writers like you who write amazing, beautiful stuff.

  29. rashmi0103 says:

    Getting interesting day by day…it doesn’t take even a minute to destroy your peace. Trust is the most important factor in a relationship. Will be eagerly waiting for the next chapter.

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you… next on Tuesday!

  30. ~Shiv~ says:

    I adore Nandu.. What a lady!! And this chapter defines the core her.. the quality to understand the other despite being hurt or affected coz of the same person is rare and should be treasured. And more respect for her for not taking any trash and voicing her hurt out loud clearly.

    It’s a tough road ahead for Manik but the best part is he’s aware of his follies. He can’t change overnight either and these incidents will only make MaNan stronger. The sadist in me wants to see him grovel 😝 but poor guy is suffering too. Loved how you addressed his issues and vulnerabilities in this chapter.

    Waiting for more…

    1. Manita V says:

      Hahaha… the sadist in me wished they took a long break but the compassionate one in me feels for Manik… the poor guy is suffering too ( like you said)
      Let’s hope for the best for both of them 🙂

  31. Diviya says:

    “It’s marriage….. Not a joke… That you can end it over a bad temper” how true this and loved it!

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you 🙂

  32. Diviya says:

    Loved how nanduu let manik also I can understand what nanduu saying she is really on point there no needs of say end their relationship and manik really need to more work and loved this update so emotional roller coaster love it!

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you Diviya… so sweet of you !

  33. Lopamudra Swain says:

    I didn’t commented on the last chapter, I wanted to wait for this update. See how the situation evolves.

    A relationship which is clearly based on understanding and trust and after that love.. Manik and nandini were happy souls when they were alone. But the only issue came when manik did not discuss about his family and how he was so distant from them. He said, he did not talk about it. This is why the problem arise. Both were vulnerable at the time but you can’t just break relationships in a minute. The outburst was justified but the words cannot. It broke the heart of nandini. But nandini also now taking haste decisions. Marriage always needs time and faith. Give it properly it will blossom like flower.

    1. Manita V says:

      Nandini has been the most patient until now. She calmly took care of the situation despite being broken, now also she listened to Manik and supported him when he needed her… she didn’t leave him wailing in guilt and pain…
      But from now, she is free to choose her way coz I agree with you that marriage needs time and faith but how will a girl react when asked to leave the house and go… her concern is that he will do it again… for he will never be attached to her so much to not let go of her… Manik needs to redeem himself…

      1. Lopamudra Swain says:

        It looks like they have to go through the painful way to build it again.

  34. Shewani says:

    Even I would have said the same thing what Nandini said. It’s true, once it breaks, it’ll take years to build. Some time even years won’t be enough.

    1. Manita V says:

      Absolutely true!

  35. Madhuri says:

    Will be interesting how will the faith come back

    1. Manita V says:

      Faith is one thing that breaks easlly but is takes time to build up

  36. Kirti says:

    Well said Nandini!!
    I too think like her especially that part “you cants end certain things just because you were angry/hurt”
    Eagerly waiting for next part😀

    1. Manita V says:

      That’s true. Some things are acceptable and some things are non-negotiable. Fighting while staying in a relationship is fine… breaking it is no joke!

      1. Kirti says:

        Trueee
        Also from a person who says he is not vocal about his emotions, it’s totally unacceptable 😅
        Now I am waiting for Manik’s apology..
        I know you will give a practical solution …. Your writing always inspires me😀
        I am waiting for that 😉

        1. Manita V says:

          I hope I justify the build up and don’t degrade anyone’s pain. Both are in pain but both reacted differently. Manik already knows about his fault but his words were like arrows shot which won’t return without damaging her.
          Let’s hope he makes amendments properly!

  37. mayishafairuz says:

    I was excepting this. Though i feel sad to see them like this but it was needed for a beautiful future. If Manik don’t understand his mistakes now in future maybe the situation will be worst. I would really like to see how will Manik pacify Nandini😍. Please di update the next chapter soon. Now really can’t wait 😣

    1. Manita V says:

      Agree. If you accept trash behaviour once, you give the other person a license to do it again.

  38. rajirath says:

    What a chapter!! Can’t stop crying.
    Having read all ur stories I am positive that Manik here is going to learn how to handle relationships:)
    Manita
    For any successful writer I feel
    1.clarity about how the story progresses
    2. Just enough description
    3. No dragging
    4. Adding positivity in characters
    5. Readers feeling the emotions
    are important. You do that and much more. I admire you for such great skills. Hats off to you.
    Raji

    1. Manita V says:

      I’m overwhelmed. This made my day as I have no words to reply to this comment.
      I don’t plan this way… i just write as my heart says but when it clicks with the readers, I feel blessed!
      Thank you dear!!

  39. Asha says:

    I felt the pain what she is going through. What is manik going to do now?? Hope for the best. Waiting for the next chapter

    1. Manita V says:

      Manik will mend his ways and the relationship too 🙂

  40. haripriyaax_ says:

    idk what to say after seeing the title. My heart goes for nandini, she has been enduring sm but still she never failed to complete her duties. I also realised how much manik was having in his heart. Everything he assumed from the start crumbled down in front of him. I understood even he’s suffering his share of pain. and despite manik’s reckless behaviour nandini never left his side. Probably the love she had for him refused to. That was part was written so well by you! 👌
    I hope nandini would understand soon that he didn’t mean any of them he spoke (that’s what I think) and I don’t want this dooriyaan bw them to prolong. I really can’t see my babies suffering. The last two lines at end just broke my heart I hope manik would take extra efforts from his side to pacify nandini. He shouldn’t handle this situation with his normal behaviour of ‘never explaining his part or never taking enough efforts’. I really hope these both doesn’t take any drastic step at the end. Manik should really pull up his socks soon. I’m waiting for the next update to be posted soon also idk if I’ll be able to sleep soon with these both lingering in mind tonight. 😭

    1. haripriyaax_ says:

      sorry for venting out too much here! I just couldn’t gather myself .. I’m really dreading as to what’s gonna happen in next chapter. 😭

      1. Manita V says:

        1. Don’t apologise for letting your heart out. It’s an informal space where we can write whatever we want 🙂

        2. You need to stop worrying and have trust in me 🙂

        1. haripriyaax_ says:

          that I totally trust you dii. It’s just my normal fangirl instinct who’s unable to see my babies suffering. 🙈❤

          1. Manita V says:

            Aawwww 😀 *Hugs*

          2. Manita V says:

            Thank you.

    2. Pratiksha P says:

      Woah! Loved the update… the break was needed I guess. I want a new guy in Nandini’s life . That would be interesting to see … to make manik realise that is . She is right though. Marriage isn’t a joke.

      1. Manita V says:

        Hahaha!! Manik already realises that she is precious for him and he is feeling guilty. He doesn’t need jealousy angle for realisation!!

        1. Pratiksha P says:

          Got it..haha! But I know you will justify their faith in each other perfectly! Waiting to read 🙂

  41. Piya66 says:

    Please di update next part , otherwise I can’t stop y any this all time 😭😭😭😭

    1. Manita V says:

      I will update on Tuesday

    2. piya66 says:

      *Thinking about this

  42. hinuthakkar11 says:

    I knew it she will say something like this only as she is not angry but she is way too hurt…Even after being hurted by him she listened to him,talked to him,supported him whole night which i really didn’t expect😅still she did it bcz she loves him like anything…and she said it right it’s a marriage not a joke which can be over on a bad temper… actually this was a reality check for him that just bcz something happened u can’t go away from that relationship or distant yourself from that person.. u have to make some efforts only then the relationship will work whichever it is..and here to it’s a marriage so u can’t just break it off over some bad situations…now i wanna know what he will do as I don’t think Nandu will forgive him for hurting her just like that..just hoping he would stop her from going from their home…can’t wait for next one🙈

    1. Manita V says:

      Big battle before manik… let’s hope he wins through this without hurting her more…

      1. hinuthakkar11 says:

        Yess and he gets only 2 days so he will have to work so hard so that she won’t go from his life and also get her forgiveness which is very tough…

        1. Manita V says:

          That’s the crux of it…

          1. hinuthakkar11 says:

            Yes and i m sure he will do something as now he has realised his mistake and he won’t let her go away from his life no matter what..though it will be very tough for him but he will do something for it for sure😄
            And i have trust on you dii that u won’t make them separate for very long😁

            1. Manita V says:

              😀 😀 Thanks for the trust! One thing I can promise – that I won’t disappoint you!

  43. Ruchi Garg says:

    Marriage is a difficult commitment altogether. You understand it as per your need but you can’t ignore your own flaws. Its said its hard to change one’s nature. True…but the hardest part is to accept one’s nature and their flaws and build a relation over it.
    Speed breakers timely comes in marriage in the form of fights which is rather good as it keep the speed maintained but it also gives a reality check of where one’s relationship stand. What you are investing in is actually paying off or is not enough.
    Manik and Nandini had their respective nature of dealing with relationship and the trust and hurt involved in it. A day has to come where they have to face it and deal with it. Both reacted according to their nature, now it will be interesting to see how they deal with their nature to remain together.

    1. Ruchi says:

      This is soo true..both have to change their nature a bit with each other for the relationship to work..2 days is a buffer for Manik to stop her now.

    2. Manita V says:

      You are right… we need to accept each other’s flaws before building a life around it… At the same time it is important not to hurt the other – sayimg – I’m like that only!
      That’s mean… and some people do that!

  44. kalpana devi says:

    Nice update. What manik spoke cannot be taken back with a sorry. This time he messed up big. I dont know how he is going to manifoy her and how is going to win her trust back. She is not a toy to throw away when ever he wants and bring her back. I hope both don’t get separated.

    1. Puspita Das says:

      I can so feel the pain and hurt.. Can’t express. Thanks for your wonderful update. Waiting for the story progress.

      1. Manita V says:

        Thank you 🙂

    2. Manita V says:

      Absolutely! It has to be equal on both sides and should be an unbreakable ‘forever’ bond…

  45. Ruchi says:

    Amazing update..my ♥️ is paining for them so much right now..if I was in Nandini’s place I would have done the same thing..feeling bad for Manik too he didn’t know what’s happening in his family.. hope Manik decides to stop her this time.

    1. Manita V says:

      Yes… Manik needs to think of something that will stop her…

  46. babykins ria says:

    Amazing update……
    I like the way Nandini managed her anger and ego..
    Frankly speaking I was expecting the same reaction as picturing myself in place of Nandini I would have done the same thing…
    But despite of everything like manik’s outburst, Nandini’s commendable reaction the best part of today’s update was definitely the last line…… With that Nandini made one thing clear she won’t take anything bad when it comes to her self respect…. Loved it 😘
    Eagerly Waiting for the next part just to see manik’s reaction on Nandini’s last statement…
    Please update next part asap….

    1. Manita V says:

      If we learn to practice control on anger and ego, I think we have won half our battles…

      1. babykins ria says:

        True that…
        😊

  47. chandrasan says:

    I love their couch conversation ❤ manik opening up to her abt everything has my ❤ and in the end when nandini didn’t liked his concern abt her sleep, that was very heartbreaking for us to read💔 she notice his concern like every little gesture and today she didn’t liked it y nandini y 😰😰

    1. Manita V says:

      Why…because…after telling her to leave him and go away, now what is the use of asking her to sleep properly…
      she is hurt and wants to punch him for being so harsh to her

      1. chandrasan says:

        Ask her to give two extra punches from my side as well😂😂🤣 it’s just that caring manik was always spl that’s y I felt little sad 🙈

        1. Manita V says:

          He still cares… he will always care for her the most…

  48. Madhuri53 / Madhuri Kulkarni says:

    Part 89 – The title itself is depressing and can guess what will be in the update.
    Every couple lacks in something or other. But they get adjusted with each other. Manik was surely wrong but I think nandini too was wrong for not giving him a chance. It was big shock for him. He got to know lots of things which he never expected that could happen with him. His mother’s nature made him to stay away from people who might hurt him. But he was different with nandini. She also should understand him, his state of mind. Agree that she was angry, felt betrayed by him, for breaking her trust. She always understood him. I hope she will give him chance.
    I liked how despite of hurting she went to hospital, talked to doctor, talked to Manoj and most importantly she gave much needed moral support to manik when he broke down. If she understood him so we’ll why she is not giving him chance??? Can’t see them like this.

    Madhuri53

    1. Manita V says:

      Nandini understands him even now…she loves him…but she is hurt that he cut her off like he pushes away everyone from his life…
      she is broken coz of that

  49. G says:

    When I said about understanding Nandini in the last chapter I am NOT surprised to get Manik here too (because I am that person who throws people out) and you are one heck of a writer.
    I don’t even remember commenting this much 😅

  50. PriyankaM11 says:

    Awesome.. Di you wrote soo well 👏👏
    Indeed Nandu will think to leave him as he only asked her to leave. It was soo emotional. Nandu is soo correct at her place. But the thing which amused me is how can she be this calm and composed? I mean she just sat with him the entire night and listen to him. Yes Manik was in pain but she too didn’t have any less, she didn’t lash out on him or say any hard words to him like he said to her. And I think it’s the hardest thing to do.
    Manik has been doing the same thing he has been pushing every person away frog him but he should know every person is not the same. He has gone overboard while protecting himself but now he should know it’s not same as to every other relation he has.
    I just felt every and every word you wrote Di. That much intensity you have with your words. I hope Manik will realise his mistake and will put his everything to gain her trust again. As I loved all happy phases of them I am loving this phase too. Cause as you said they will become even more stronger than before. Now I am eager to know what will he do and how will he stop her from leaving.
    Thank you for making my day. Was waiting for update since morning.
    Loads of Love. 💗
    Stay blessed. 💫

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you for the lovely words dear….yeahh… they will emerge stronger than before…that is for sure!!
      Their love for each other is above every feeling and pain

  51. chandrasan says:

    Omg omg damn emotional update di 😭😭I was literally crying throughout! When I read ” Nandu’s reddened eyes ” I was like my condition is same while reading it 😭😭 I felt the pain and the hurt.. How could u write so beautifully 💕❤

    1. Manita V says:

      Awwww…don’t cry *tissues please*
      Hugs for you!!

  52. Aashna says:

    this is so lovely😘😘❤❤❤❤❤😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

  53. lovelyrashu says:

    Superb update though the ending was not expected but its nandini’s natural behavior just like how manik behave impulsive when angry or hurt and keeps people at bay to not get hurt again, nandini herself had earlier to manik that she break ties with people when hurt and I can’t say that nandini is wrong when I myself behave the same way 😉 its both of their coping mechanism. Nandini still even when hurt by manik didn’t leave him alone to suffer and I guess that’s what love is, to comfort and support the other unconditionally 😍. Hope Latika gets conscious soon and respond positively towards doctor’s advice for her treatment. Manik should pull up his socks to work hard on their relationship again and to not give up easily.

    1. Manita V says:

      True… Nandini does the same – she cuts off people from her life and never gives them the second chance…

  54. sumaia sara says:

    I know this is coming Nandini had perfectly understand Manik,Manik does have trust issue he doesn’t want to hurt people or get hurt by them so he always let them go and move on or keep distance from like he did with Latika.Even if not about Latika in future for other matter he might react same.
    Nandini is such a mature soul even through she is hurt still she give her shoulder to Manik to share his pain Manik is so lucky to have her but idiot messed it up big time. I guess this accident was needed to give Manik a reality check that sometime even he need to try and understand other instead let thing go easily and move on.
    Can’t wait for next update Di 🤧

    1. haripriyaax_ says:

      imo manik trusts nandini, if not he would’ve never opened up to her. He shared his deepest insecurities, vulnerablities with her inspite being a total introvert to the outside world. may be cause of the situation at present he behaved recklessly. im sure he didn’t have any check on his words. this is absolutely what I observed. :33

      1. sumaia sara says:

        Ik but still he think that people would fed up of him and leave him or will hurt him or he will hurt them something like this that’s why he always stay far from Latika and in anger he told Nandini to leave that what I mean that’s why Nandini now in doubt too 🙁

    2. Manita V says:

      True… Manik is lucky to have her but messed it up… and even Nandini is lucky to have him but this one incident made her insecure about their bond. Manik needs to strengthen it again

  55. Anonymous says:

    Pls don’t separate them
    But yes let manik learn his lesson and she is right he will break her or push her whenever he feel like and pull her closer whenever he wants. This is not a way she is a human not a toy whom u can use and throw away

    1. Manita V says:

      You are right… he neds to know that he can’t behave as it suits him… when he wants, he wants her… and when he is angry, he pushed her away!

  56. hope manik will make nadini trust on love again. so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeee chapter diii

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you 🙂

  57. very nice chapter di. i was waiting since morning. this is reality when someone hurts your for no reason you forgive them understanding there situation but the broken bonds cannot be together. the words should always be choosen wisely

    1. Manita V says:

      Absolutely… each word is a weapon that should be used wisely

  58. Priyanka Biswal says:

    A perfect sunday evening, thanku 4 that didu.. this part is too emotional, grt writing each nd every word is on point.. nd i think ye jaruri tha baat karna dono ko, bt nandini is so right on her point.. itni asani se wo nahi manegi, manik ko trust karna padega completely.. after all trust is base of every relationship.. hope manik will understand this, ya phir aap ho na didu😉.. amazing awsm part loved it

    1. Manita V says:

      Trust is the base of every relationship and it is the easiest to break.
      Let;s hope Manik mends it. And yeah… main toh hu na!

  59. Pooja says:

    I understand Manik’s outbursts a day before.. my heart really goes out to him when it comes to his family.. but at the same time the way Nandini was treated wasn’t fair either.. saying that he hates her and asking her to go away was lil too much I felt.. specially when they did have the understanding.. I am glad Nandini is giving him hard time.. I really want Nandini to make him realise what he said in the heat of a moment wasn’t a joke.. marriage isn’t a joke.. he was really harsh with his words.. as Nandini said “it’s a marriage… not a joke… that you can end it over a bad temper…”

    1. Manita V says:

      Nandini will make him realise and in a way that he will never forget it 🙂

      1. Pooja says:

        Yes in a way this may be a chance not just for his redemption but also a major turning point in their relationship that wil make their marriage and their belief in each other more strong

  60. Mspagal says:

    Awesome and it’s so good and it’s super

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you

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