Tangles & Ties: Chapter 88: The Pain

I am overwhelmed and touched by the response to the previous chapter. There were so many comments. I read them all and when I tried to reply to everyone today, I couldn’t do it. So a lot of people were left. Just know that I LOVE YOU people…A LOT!!!
Thank you sooooooo much… Your love is precious for me…

Stay blessed and happy!!!

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“Papa, I just want to know that last time you had a fight with ma after you corrected her, why was she admitted to the hospital?”

Manoj looked at Manik and then Trisha and Gaurvi, before replying in a sober tone –

“She had tried to commit suicide.”

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Manik had been leaning by the wall outside the Emergency Room, hands folded across his chest. His father’s confession brought him back to an alert position.

He straightened himself and walked near him, absolutely baffled, “What?!?! Mom had tried to commit suicide? When? Why didn’t you tell me?”

Manoj pursed his lips, having no reply to Manik’s questions. It was obvious that they had done this to protect their family reputation because in the part of Lucknow they lived, it was still considered a ‘huge’ thing if someone tried to commit suicide. But they didn’t even tell Manik about it and it wasn’t excusable. Manik was now looking at him with a disappointed, questioning look in his eyes.

Manoj replied in a low voice, “We didn’t want you to get worried or come running to see her. She was out of danger… so …we…”

“Dad…this is unbelievable! You decided that I shouldn’t know of THIS??” Manik was still unable to digest that his family had kept him away from this big catastrophe that they had suffered alone. It was one thing to try to stay away from people to avoid getting hurt and as a protective mechanism from emotions. But a totally different feeling when the same people kept you away from something so crucial.

Manoj was quiet and he lowered his eyes. Meanwhile, the doctor called them inside and told them that Latika was out of danger. She was not conscious but her vital parameters were normal and it was a big relief. There was no threat to her life anymore. The intensivist and the emergency resident had called the psychiatrist too for it was a clear cut case of self-medication and deliberate overdose of the same.

The psychiatrist asked Manoj, “Your daughter-in-law Dr. Nandini is my wife’s colleague. She told me that this has happened previously too. You need to understand that I can help you… but only… if you allow me to talk to your wife.”

Manoj looked at Manik, who nodded to affirm that he should say ‘yes’. Then, he looked at Nandini, who nodded too and said, “Papa, the counseling is best when it starts in the hospital itself. Ma will be most receptive at this time and she will understand why the doctor is talking to her. Doctor Sarkar will visit twice a day till she is admitted here and he will build a rapport by then. Next time onwards, she will seek him on her own. But… once we go back, it will be impossible to convince her and bring her here.”

Manoj agreed and replied to the doctor, “Do what you think is the best. We just want her to recover and feel better.”

“Okay… I’ll ask a few questions and then when she is conscious, I’ll be able to talk to her better.”

“Alright!”

“Dr. Nandini told me that this happened twice before?”

“Yes. Once, when all of our three kids were young and in school. We had a very small fight and I didn’t know that she will end up consuming sleeping tablets.I stopped fighting with her after that and thought that it was an attention-seeking step. She was always the one who liked to be a major decision-maker and the center of everything significant at home. So, we accepted that and allowed her to be the key person in every matter that was important. She wanted everything revolving around her. It was all fine for many years. Then… last year, she was being mean to her younger sister Meera, telling her that Meera was interfering in our household matters more than required. More so, because all of our kids are closer to Meera, esp Manik… so Latika hated that and told her to stay away from us. Meera had cried and I told Latika not to be so harsh with her sister because she only meant good for us. She doesn’t have her own kids and so she is closer to our children. Latika felt guilty. She apologised to Meera and then at night, she had an entire bottle of moth repellants. Thankfully, we took her to hospital in time…” Manoj stopped speaking after that, guilty and full of remorse after narrating the entire incident to the doctor… leaving both Manik and Nandini in shock.

Manik felt like a heavy stone was dumped on his chest, so heavy that he couldn’t breathe anymore. On any of the two occasions, his mom could have died and he wouldn’t have known… ever! He wouldn’t have got the time to tell her how much he loved her. That, he stayed away from her because he was scared to get hurt by her accusations, neglect, and taunts. He didn’t know that his mom’s hurtful manner was how she was expressing her displeasure that Manik was drifting away from her. Instead of showing love, she taunted him and found solace in Gaurvi. Manik’s ways of defending himself had pushed him so distant to his family that he wouldn’t have known if any of them had died. The huge burden on his chest suffocated his throat as well. He took a deep breath but was unable to speak anymore.

The doctor spoke to Manoj, “Sir, do you know that suicidal tendency is ‘not’ a normal thing. While it is okay to feel low and depressed due to several issues in life, not everyone goes ahead and thinks about ending their lives. And people who do, are unable to handle what they are going through, and find death as the easiest escapist solution… they need help. You should have talked to a doctor, years ago, when it occurred for the first time. It wouldn’t have increased so much during these years.”

“I thought, it was an attention-seeking behaviour… often she would get hyper … agitated, angry and would lash out on everyone if they went against her… or depressed and low for no reason at all… she would be like an angel on other days… happy, positive, motivating and loving… so much that we thought that low and angry outbursts were the attention-seeking actions and we gave that to her. We would do what she wanted and never went against her…”

“And so she thought that she was entitled to everyone obeying her orders and behave as per her whims and fancies.” The doctor said, “All that you said is not normal… it is a sign of deep turmoil inside a person. She was always insecure. And when Manik left home and the girls became busy, she became more lonely!”

Nandini leaned by the wall of the room, heaving a deep sigh of relief that Latika was safe now and the family was listening patiently to the doctor. There were high chances that Latika would listen too. And if she didn’t, there were people who cared about her and they would ensure that she was treated well.

Gaurvi and Trisha had been in tears. Gaurvi said, “We could see all the symptoms right before us… and for years… but we never took them seriously. How come bhabhi noticed in just 2 days??”

Dr. Sarkar said, “We are taught to have a high index of suspicion in almost all cases. It’s better to be safe than sorry. We meet almost 150-200 new patients every day, talk to them, question them about their routine, their problems and sometimes their family too… chances are that you may never meet in your entire lifetime, so many new people that a doctor meets every day… so, we start noticing things more…learn more… it’s all about practice…It doesn’t take time to notice abnormal behaviour. That’s what Nandini did…”

“And we thought that mom was like that only…”

“Not just you… normally, most of the people ignore the symptoms or accept them and behave according to how a person wants… sometimes, we fight it out… further pushing a person towards the trigger that destabilizes his mental state…”

Manoj asked, “But then all of us have such episodes… bouts of sudden angry outbursts… upset mood… depressive states… low feeling… we can’t go on suspecting everyone. This will make every person a psychiatric patient.”

Dr. Sarkar smiled, “No, it is not like that. All of us have these varying episodes of changing moods and we have different personalities, some aggressive, some quieter, some patient and some impulsive… they are all normal as long as these episodes come and go without significantly affecting the ability to handle them… after some time, we all come back to the normal balanced equilibrium that we have maintained for ourselves. It is fine to have some mood swings caused by something distressing or something elating… as long as one is able to handle these episodes and they don’t change dramatically. Once we are unable to handle it, when the highs are higher than normal and lows are so deep that it is not just feeling low but feeling like end of life… it begins to affect our day-to-day interactions, sleep and food habits, social relationships, and behaviour, it increases a self-harming attitude and a tendency to trouble others… at that time one should seek help… talk to someone if it goes beyond the capacity to handle…”

“Will she be fine?” Manoj asked.

“We are there to help. There are medicines available for every issue but I will have to talk to her in detail, order some tests and come to a correct diagnosis of the disorder and its type before I begin treating her.”

Manik moved away and sat beside Latika, watching her helpless, unconscious body, drained, dehydrated and pale. Tears dropped down his eyes while he sat quietly before her with eyes lowered and his hand holding her hand.

Gaurvi and Trisha stood with Manoj as Dr. Sarkar told them that he will come again and talk to Latika now before he tells them how he plans to treat her.

Nandini’s phone rang. She attended it and said, “I’ll have to go the hospital. One of my patients is apprehensive and needs me.”

Manoj said, “Yeahh… You should go, beta. Manik will drop you…”

Manik immediately stood up when he heard that. He didn’t know how to face Nandini now after the way he had impulsively and angrily lashed out at her. He didn’t even listen to her and asked her to go. He couldn’t believe that he said that he hated her while she had been the one who didn’t take it on her ego. Instead, she had remained patient and explained how it was more important to save his mom at that moment. He couldn’t meet her eyes anymore. When he looked up to look at her, she turned her eyes away. He knew that she had been looking at him a moment before this. But now, she moved her eyes away. Someone who could talk to him even without speaking any word and would convey everything only in gestures and eye-talk… didn’t want to meet his eyes now. Her eyes were moist and reddened… and he was well aware that he was the reason for the pain in those eyes…

He didn’t hate her… he hated himself for giving so much pain to her. Once he had asked her not to cry and he had promised her that he wouldn’t let anything hurt her… now, he had become the reason of tears in those pretty eyes… for no fault of hers…
He didn’t know how to begin talking to her again. Thankfully, his dad had given him one opportunity to apologise to her.

But Nandini quashed that chance.

“No!” Nandini said, stopping him, but without looking at him directly, “You take Gaurvi di home. She must be really tired and drained out. Not good for her and the baby.”

Manik stopped and nodded robotically without saying another word. Nandini moved out of the room leaving behind her in-laws family and Manik with them. Tears rolled down her eyes one after the other as she gripped her phone in her hand tightly and took long steps through the tiled corridor of the hospital. She walked out and hired an auto to take her to the hospital…

… the only place where she felt she belonged, right now!

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128 Comments Add yours

  1. Heaven_to_hell says:

    It’s really touchy… Soooo infirmaative… Thank you di… No words are enough to explain my feelofee.
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  2. pixiepari says:

    I know we are no one to comment on maniks feelings but he need to know that he can’t just say anything…he need to feel guilty come what may…she is hurt…imagine what if she never thought about your mom as a doctor but got hurt as yoir wife then ??? Would you anger brought your mom back ??

  3. Tanusree Saha says:

    Manvita di will you update the chapter today?

    1. Manita V says:

      Wait… I already updated today evening dear.. the next part to this story is up!

  4. Shygal9 says:

    Aah… I got tears in my eyes…Such a emotional chapter.. Such a strong girl Nandani is💕

  5. haripriyaax_ says:

    just happened to read the latest few chapters altogether. I’m just waiting for this phase to end super soon and I’m sure they’ll be coming back even more stronger, their bond will strengthen honestly I believe this. Just wanted to convey the way you’re portarying this track be it nandini’s chacrater dealing with her maturity and selflessness or manik’s and his outburst is really commendable. No wonder you’re having your readers on their toes di. 😭❤
    though those words he uttered during their dispute really made me so upset I will absolutely never justify his anger. Placing myself in his shoes I myself would’ve lost my calm but I would really have a check on my words. :'(

  6. Anonymous says:

    Di will you update today?

    1. Manita V says:

      No, I will update tomorrow

  7. Unnati Limbachiya says:

    I think it’s painful situation BT manik can do it . it’s difficult BT I hope they fight talk to each other I know manik can’t explain emotions BT I hope he can do this time

    1. Manita V says:

      He has to … this time he has to go out of his way!!

  8. Madhuri53 / Madhuri Kulkarni says:

    Part 88 – Finally latika is out of danger. Nandini was always right. But what Manoj said about her while history was just scary. How they have lived with such person? Always had to manage according to her wishes. What Manoj told the doctor was also right. Family members were always managed to behave as per such person’s changing behavior.
    Manik was the most shocked person who don’t know that his mother already tried to suicide twice and he never was informed. Every news was new shock to him and all were already warned by nandini and he scolded her for that, said some harsh words, hurt her badly. Niw he wished to redeem them but she was already afar from him. Hope he gets the chance to apologise and make-up for his mistake.
    Nandini was also right that latika should be treated now when she was already admitted and could be easily treated by psychiatrist. Hope she will too supportive to the treatment
    Just want everything fine bet manik and Nandini.

    Madhuri53

    1. Manita V says:

      Everything will be fine between MaNan eventually. Sometimes difficult phases are important to test a bond, the strength of love and understanding.

  9. Juii says:

    Amazziingg update!!!!
    Very beautifully written…
    Especially loved the part wherein you explained how psychiatric episodes are different from normal outbursts…
    But in this Nandini has been hurted the most… She was just trying to help…..
    Feeling bad for her… Just hope our MaNan comes out from this mess soon…
    More strong and more close than ever🤞

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you 🙂

      The line between natural outbursts and psychiatric issues is so thin that it is sometimes blurred. Normally, the people around the patient think that it is something in that person’s nature…

  10. lovepeehu says:

    Brilliant update! I loved how you explained about mental health and depression and these symptoms in detail. you are not only fullfilling a writer’s job but doing Justice to your Dr. Self. I like these traits about you that how you always try to educate us everything you know or experienced in life through your writings. People can come here easily and talk about their issues along with reading their favourite MaNan is the best part. I wonder how well !! we all have connected to you through your writings. MaNan gave us best mentor and friend honestly.

    About update as I always said your writing is so brilliant that I could imagine all this happening with MaNan in real. I feel sad and angry for Manik at the same time and Nandini my darling is always at receiving end still so mature and understanding 😥. I have full trust on Manik that he will make up for his mistake to Nandu. He loves her so much but stupid didn’t think before speaking. But I know MaNan will clear this mess soon and will be together 🤗😍😍

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you Peehu.
      My parents say that if I wasn’t a doctor or a counsellor and didn’t take up writing as my passion, I would have been a teacher… that is how much I pakao everyone 😀 😀
      Lol… thank you for tolerating my ramblings 🙂

      1. lovepeehu says:

        Hahahaha.. in any way you are the best 🤗

      2. Isha says:

        Are you a counsellor?

  11. Asha says:

    So much emotions at the same time.

    1. Manita V says:

      And so suddenly too 🙂

  12. chandrasan says:

    Nandini way to go girl! Much needed ignorance towards manik!! But my heart so bad reading abt nandu’s pain. Words hurt and when it comes from ur closed ones it hurts more and we can’t forget it. Nandini is going through the same pain. Hope things fall in place for manan but not soon. Manik should realize and punishment is a must 😡😡😠😤

    1. Manita V says:

      Nandini is hurt because she didn’t expect Manik to be so harsh towards her while she was only trying to help.

  13. chandrasan says:

    Once again detailed information regarding depression, mental health and how ppl ignore it considering that as normal. A great applause for writing it over here 👏👏❤ each and every word makes us to individually think “are we going through this or someone close to us having these sign’s” Then further reading the explanation and ur replies, we have good idea abt mental health ❤ thank u di for this 💕

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you for reading it and accepting it… I’m glad I am not stereotyped by readers to write my stories in a certain way and people are open to everything I write. I am so privileged… I am unable to speak in words how grateful I am.
      Thank you for letting me explore different topics in different stories.

      1. chandrasan says:

        Mutual feelings di ❤ we are grateful to you coz of u we are learning many important things of life. You are a best writer and our favorite writer , y would we ask u to write ur story in certain way sply when we are already clean bowled by ur writing and ur ideas😍😍❤

        1. Manita V says:

          That is such a reassuring message for any writer… thanks again 🙂

  14. Kavita Karwarkar says:

    This time Manik deserves it… she is a emotional girl… he knew it very well.. but still he hurt her… hurt which is beyond repair… Nandini should not forgive him easily…

    1. Manita V says:

      Nandini knows how to understand people and how to stand up for herself too… so she will aptly tell him how not to behave with someone who is trying to help 🙂

  15. Anonymous says:

    Honestly, I think she should ask manik for a break. Maybe stay away for a few days so she can deal with the
    hurt and he can realize how much he screwed up

    1. Manita V says:

      The worst part is that Manik is someone who doesn’t explain things naturally and nor does he stop people when they leave him.

  16. Anonymous says:

    Nice !!

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you.

  17. PriyankaM11 says:

    I am just shocked right now… Literally cried in the last.. Such a mind blowing twist. I think in this whole thing Manoj is totally wrong. Suicide is not a normal thing right and he know in past she had committed it due to a very small fight. A normal person will never do that. at that time only he should have consultant a psychiatrist. Instead of naming her behavior as attention seeking.
    I know it’s hard for manik. Out of no where one day you got to know your mom is a psychiatric patient and need treatment it’s not so easy to digest. But nandu has warned him before too. Instead of silencing her he should have observed Latika’s behavior. Somewhere down the line while protecting nandu he has taken her for granted. Even though he has soo many things to handle but you just can’t say mean things in your anger. Cause actions can be forgiven but words are those which can’t even forgotten easily. He doesn’t like explaining himself. But I want him to explain her nicely. I want him to take efforts to monify nandu.
    And what can I say about her. She is such a selfless girl. Even though he said her to leave she stayed back and make him understand the situation. Their is soo much to learn from her. She always prefer others upon her.
    But Di i want our Manan back. I know I can’t pressurize you but will you please make them okay so that they can deal the things together. Cause whenever they are together they just bring the best out of them.
    You are just awesome Di. I just want to read and read your updates. Didn’t even get to know when the update end. Sometimes You make us roll on floor laughing, sometimes you make us cry buckets, sometimes you make us tense thinking what will happen next,and sometimes you make us grin. 🤭
    Love to read everything you write. And will always do. Have a great day.
    Stay blessed. 💫

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you for the lovely words, dear. I’m glad you enjoy my writings.

      MaNan will be fine. It is a phase that tests their relationship and I’m sure they will prove to be stronger than their obstacles. However, the redemption doesn’t come easy for Manik 🙂

      1. PriyankaM11 says:

        Welcome Di.. 🤗
        And I will love to see Manik dance on Nandu’s little finger.. 🤭🤭
        But I love him too Di.. I feel bad for him too. Hope everything will be fine soon.

  18. Sangwi Sinha says:

    Manik hurt her beyond imagination.
    He need to heal her and earn her trust. Even after all this things she is standing with his family.
    Pls can be get one more update

    1. Manita V says:

      I will update tomorrow!
      Manik will have to redeem himself in a big way but this is something very difficult for him because he is bad at relationships.

  19. Anonymous says:

    Amazing update
    Manik has hurt her beyond imagination and he need to learn some lesson. Even after everything nandani stand with his family without any ego.
    Manik has need to understand that he can’t take her for granted everytime.
    Can we pls get one more update today

    1. Manita V says:

      I will update tomorrow.
      Thank you 🙂

  20. Madhuri says:

    Only a creative writer could pen down such deep emotions. Great work👍🏻

    1. Manita V says:

      So sweet of you! Thank you!!

  21. sarswati rajendra suryawanshi says:

    I want to ask some question about mental issues. How u actually identify tantrums and attention seeking from mental illness? How to identify if a person is depressed? My mother is a kind of dominating as far as I remember but now a days she became so sensitive that we can’t make fun of her. She snaps at every small thing. She wants everything according to her wish. We abide by whatever she says or else she loses her cool. I thought it to be coz of menopause. She is not suicidal but she says she will die before age. Is it a mental health issue? How to identify if she is depressed. I dint ever feel her but now I don’t know.

    1. Manita V says:

      It will be a long topic if I explain here how to say that a person is depressed or not. I would advise reading about it – there are several websites where they outline in detail where the symtoms are normal and where they go beyond normalcy and need psychiatric help.
      To say in short, there are certain alarming signs that say that a person needs help –
      – Change in Sleep behaviour, either excessive sleep more than normal or no sleep at all
      – Change in food habits – eating more than normal or not liking anything at all.
      – Getting agitated over petty issues
      – Suicidal tendencies and talking about death, not casually, but seriously
      – Prolonged state of sadness that doesn’t go away even when people try to cheer you
      – Prolonged happiness, without reason
      – Sad state but a person doesn’t know why he/she is sad and why is not able to feel better
      – Loss of interest in every activity – even day to day ones
      – Excessively picky about things and changing statements again and again

      Read more — the line between normal and depressed state/ bipolar is thin

  22. ~Shiv~ says:

    Oh man!! I’m so overwhelmed with this plot twist.. read few past updates together.. and WOW what an emotionally charged plot and complex relationships you’ve targeted.. Kudos!!

    There’s no OTT drama or cliche plot lines.. you’ve beautifully drawn out how raw emotions drive people’s behavior and can hurt others.. Wonderful!! Waiting to read more ❤️

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you so much! Your appreciation and motivation made my day… I have a wide smile on my face 😀 😀
      Glad you liked it!

  23. rajirath says:

    The last para made me cry. Can’t wait for the next chapter.

    1. Manita V says:

      I’m sorry for putting you through this.
      I will update tomorrow!

  24. mspagal says:

    Awesome and it’s so beautiful

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you 🙂

  25. Deepa says:

    So so emotional nandini ke sahi step se latika ki life Bach gai. Muje ye nahi samaj ata hi log abhi bhi phychogical problems ko ignore kyu karte hai. Jab aap ka man hi shant nahi hoga to aap apne mind kaise shant rakh sakoge. manik ko to bhul hi Jana chahiye ki nandini use maf karegi usne gusse itna harsh words use kiye hai nandini ke liye ki koi aur hota kab ka use chhod ke ja Chuka hota but nandini ne aisa nahi Kiya. Well done nandini

    1. Manita V says:

      Absolutely true! Anyone else would have left then and there.

  26. kalpana devi says:

    Can we expect another update today.

    1. Manita V says:

      Tomorrow afternoon 🙂

  27. kalpana devi says:

    Awesome update. I m happy for lathika she is totally out of danger. Manoj shouldn’t hide such a big thing from his family and kids. Manik this time u have to work hard to manifoy nandhini. The things u said to her is not small. One should watch their words before they speak. Here nandhini is the most hurted person but she took care of lathika without any ego. I really appreciate her.

    1. Manita V says:

      True! Your anger can be justified but your words cannot be justified. You should watch your words before you speak.

  28. Priyanka Biswal says:

    Loved the part very much like every time… feeling bad 4 our manan.. gussa karna is ok bt jab hum gusse me kuch bol rahe hai so soch ke bolna chahiye, nd manik ka toh ya hi galti hai.. nd dr ke concern bina meds lena is very dangerious ye sab ko sochna chaiye.. thanku didu ye sab batane k liye, cos ye sab padh ke bht log alert ho jate hai.. so thanku 4 always being the best writer…

    1. Manita V says:

      I see these things in everyday medical practice… especially self medication – I really feel angry when I see such people.

      1. Priyanka Biswal says:

        Yeah people around us need to know about the small lil.things which can be so dangereous…

  29. hinuthakkar11 says:

    Only if Manoj and gauravi had taken care of Latika’s situation at that time this wouldn’t happen at all..and taking medicines on your own is so irresponsible!! People need to understand this thing so badly..
    And i feel so bad for Manik like his own family didn’t consider telling him this huge thing about his mom…he must be feeling very hurt..and the guilt inside him for making distance with everyone is also killing him inside…only if he had known about this maybe this wouldn’t happen and his relationship with his mom would’ve been good…
    the person who can actually calm him down and make him feel good,he has hurted her like anything!! So he must try so so hard to get her apology…and Nandini, man we can’t even imagine the way she got hurt..still she was doing everything possible for her family and thank god for her presence of mind to go to airport on time otherwise god knows what would have happened..
    Now i want to see what Manik will do to manofy her bcz boy he has to work hard on his apology by the way he has hurted her…

    1. Manita V says:

      Manik is hurt too… he is suffering a lot… not only for distancing from his parents but also hurting Nandu… he is lost and has no one to turn to…
      He is worst at relationships.

      1. hinuthakkar11 says:

        Yes he is also very hurt by all the things and he can’t even talk to anyone regarding this..situation is very tough for him right now..Both of them are very hurt right now and can’t go to each other for their solace..if only they were together to handle the situation it would have been much better:(
        but i have my trust on them that they will do something and will be together once again very soon😄this is kind of a test for their relationship to strengthen it for the future…so that no matter what the situation is they will be together to fight it:)

        1. Manita V says:

          Absolutely!

  30. I somewhere connect to both Manik and Nandini here. Someone telling you that your mother needs medical help since she isn’t mentally stable isn’t easy to listen to and even harder to believe and when Manik experienced that, it was natural to lash out but some words that he spoke out of anger weren’t justified at all. He has deeply hurt Nandini and now he needs to earn her forgiveness and trust. On the other hand, Nandini stood like a strong pillar for Manik even though she was hurt and showed her maturity which is really appreciable and I can do relate to her. This was an amazing chapter to read.

    1. Manita V says:

      Both Manik and Nandini are hurt and have no one to turn to… they would have easily passed this phase if they were together…
      but irony is that their biggest support is not with them at this time…

  31. rashmi0103 says:

    I don’t know why…but want one more update today…
    As

    1. Manita V says:

      Kal pakka 🙂

  32. Anonymous says:

    Damn even i am crying. Am i the only one who cried with nandini n thought it should not end just here.?
    I desperately want to read more .

    1. Manita V says:

      Awww… sorry!!!
      Update tomorrow!

  33. Aastha Sondarva says:

    This chapter and my current situation males me wonder that ignoring somethings some signs can lead to a greater damage! Thankfully Nandini read the signs and was able to save Latika!!
    My heart really goes out to her because she is so delicate and fragile and those harsh words will definitely take a lot of mending to be repaired!! But tough times like these only prove how much worthy they are of each other!
    And it feels soo good to comment after soo long!!! Every chapter of yours makes us want to live life in a better way. Wants us to improve ourselves! That is what i really like the most about you and your stories!!!
    Really glad to have you back!
    Loads of love

    1. Manita V says:

      Exactly true! Tough times only bring you closer if you are ready to learn and pass through them standing tall before all the tests life puts you through…
      MaNan will win too!

  34. G says:

    You made me think of something and I don’t know how it became so easy to relate to Nandini in the last few lines.
    Thank you for the update.🥰

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you 🙂

  35. Anonymous says:

    Wow……incredible writing…….how conveniently manik had termed her inexperienced whatever be the reason and now she is only reason of maniks mom being safe and receiving treatment….without knowing anything of past happenings too she diagnosed Latika to be a psychiatric patient…..while her family was ignorant……still she was insulted and bestowed with hurtful words….now manik should earn an apology and be thankful….

    1. Manita V says:

      Exactly! He should earn the apology and he knows how difficult it is going to be…

  36. Bidisha Mohanty says:

    Well,i honestly am speechless and moreover I am having a heavy heart rn.The thing which we think to be so so normal can lead to such drastic and fatal episodes.Thank you for enlightening us with this topic Di. The ending was indeed emotional and Nandini’s tears will remain heavy in my heart till the next update.But all things said and done Manik needs to be repriminded by Nandini.I understand it was too much for him but that no where means you can say or do anything you want.

    1. Manita V says:

      Absolutely true. Your pain doesn’t give you the right to hurt others. You can’t download your burden on your loved ones to carry it.

  37. angellovemanan says:

    I loved this part its truely emotional and beautiful penned. Looking forward to next episode.

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you dear 🤗

  38. gauti reshsha says:

    My god….what a update..i cried.. seriously how true the incidents here are…we find many people in our lives who are not mentally stable and look absolutely normal..such an eye opener this chapter is…omg but how could Manik face Nandini now ..she will be broken..how will he make it up..this worries me too…what a ending… curiosity kills… thankyou di for enlightening with day to day issues what we face..either relationship or anything else…i am spell bound .. speechless..you are awesome..

    1. Manita V says:

      I feel that my readers are awesome who allow me to write anything and everything I feel like writing and they read it without cribbing. It’s a great motivation for any writer…
      Thank you for not typecasting me and expecting the same stuff in every story… thank you for allowing me to express myself without thinking whether people will like it or not…
      I have no words to thank you all.
      .

      Love ya… take care

      1. gauti reshsha says:

        You forgot to mention my name😄..its priya here…i think u didn’t recognise my id..its a combination of my kids names di…

        1. Manita V says:

          Silly girl😂… I can’t forget your name or you 🤦‍♀️😘.. go to update chapter 87 and read my replies to you… PRIYA…
          Just wrote above reply to include all readers because I genuinely wanted to thank all readers… okay priya.
          … abhi I will take your name in every sentence 🤗🤗

  39. Ruchi says:

    Such a good but painful update..I am feeling so bad for Manan right now..Manik is feeling so guilty and Nandini is heartbroken..hope Manik makes efforts very soon on his end to heal her..and she allows him to so they can face this together as a family..
    I am Soo pissed at Manoj right now..how stupid is he to say it was attention seeking behavior…did the docs in Lucknow not tell him this is not normal?

    1. Manita V says:

      Usually rich people in smaller cities don’t go to experienced specialists. Especially in cases like suicide, domestic abuse or assault, they try to hide it by consulting their family doctor or a small nursing home.
      That is what happened in this case. Manoj took it so lightly that he considered it as an attention seeking behaviour because she tried to commit suicide over a ‘small fight’… which should have been an alarm in itself… who commits suicide over a small problem?
      Also, yes MaNan are suffering and not even together to heal..
      but such is life …

      Thanks for the comment 🙂

    2. Ruchi says:

      Attention seeking would be throwing a tantrum or not talking to the person..did he not realize that this “attention seeking” suicide attempt of hers would fail to get his attention if she died

      1. Manita V says:

        True. She could have died.
        However, many husbands fail to recognise the signs when their wife starts feeling depressed. They are so connected to their professions and shallow beliefs of duties for women that any deviation from that feels like she is trying to seek attention.

    3. Tanusree Saha says:

      Hey the update was awesome today but I have a question to ask to u.. Will you update today as in Saturday as per schuedule or on Sunday?

      1. Manita V says:

        Good question 😊
        I will update on Sunday…and I’ll do it by afternoon

      2. tumne mere muh ki baat chin le but i thought di will think me as greedy ek update dia or dusre ki mang karne lage

        1. Manita V says:

          Haha… I will update tomorrow… Sunday!

  40. Harshita singh says:

    Being accused by someone u love is the most painfull thing in life. Your whole mental balance got changed within a few second u even lost the ability to think correctly but hands down to nandini, the way she managed whole Secenior is totally something unbelievable, nd manik did messed up this time that too horribly.. I don’t know where this whole thing lead relationship to. I can’t see nandini in pain and at the same time I don’t want manik to suffer so much with his mom nd nandini.. Mam please plot the story in such a way that both will suffer less pain nd I hope nandini MIL does not hate her after she recover but then it will more painfull for nandini to manage everything.

    1. Manita V says:

      Don’t worry… Nandini will be fine…
      I understand your concern… but sometimes harsh times are needed for most bonds to become crack-proof and permanent… it is a time where Manik and Nandini’s bond is being tested…

  41. di you write very beautifully. i felt like crying for nandini

    1. Manita V says:

      Awww… take my warm hugs…
      Nandini is a strong girl… she will be fine…

  42. Chendubundu says:

    ok…was eagerly waiting for this update since yesterday!!! not to pressurize you, but the way things ended in the last one, I was very eager to read the next chapter😁😁

    One thing I miss so much is the inline comments in here. There are somany instances, where I want to comment while reading, that I miss while commenting at the end! 😂😂

    First of all before I forget – Congratulations on 1 year of T & T – Its been an amazing amazing journey so far. All the Best for the rest of the journey too!!
    And also Congratulations to you for earning a new certification from Stanford!! Quite impressive! Kudos!!

    And coming to the update now – much needed clarifications were there in this one – all the talks from the doctor to the family – just confirming what Nandini has said…All thru their life together, Manoj was just treading his ways not to offend Latika after the first incident, which he thought worked for long until the second episode happened after incident with Meera. He should have gotten alarmed at least after that. 2 suicide attempts and still not ready to accept the issue. If it were not for Nandini, they would have tugged this one too under the carpet. I hope Latika too understands that she needs help. Its better that she starts right in the hospital as Nandini mentioned because once out, it is highly unlikely that they will be back to get any sort of help.

    Manik – he started to realize what he said in the anger – asking her to get lost and that he hated her – like I said, he will be completely broken with what will be coming next – His and Nandini’s relation has gotten a crack now – its completely in his hands now how he want to mend his relationship. It would be an uphill task. Nandini is shattered. I know I gave a start to Manik couple of chapters back – but now I am not quite happy with what he said in his angry demeanor . People often tend to say things in anger which they don’t think thru and ruin friendships, relationships and most importantly love! Things we say in anger, though come from mouth, they shatter the heart!

    Like always, absolutely loved the update!

    1. Manita V says:

      I absolutely agree with every word you wrote here… we don’t even realise how we unintentionally and sometimes intentionally hurt the people we love the most as we are hurt ourselves and find a soft target as an outlet to shed the burden.
      Manik’s anger was totally justified but his words were harsh.
      Nandini is too soft and delicate to be able to handle them without any damages.

      And yes, suicide attempts if failed, should be an alarm and a thankful situation… what if she had succeeded and killed herself…
      They need to get her treated well…

      1. gauti reshsha says:

        But i always thought a human behaviour normally comes out in their true form when they are angry..is that true or not di…correct me if i am wrong..i am not telling about the temperament but when they are really angry as in maniks case now..like his anger was real and he just spurted out on Nandini…so is this maniks character..again to tell please correct me if i am wrong..i so so miss the inline comments..as i forget half the things when i start writing comment…

        1. Manita V says:

          No, I don’t think so. Anger doesn’t bring out a person’s true self. Anger brings out the worst in you and sometimes leave you wondering during calmer times if it was really ‘you’ who behaved that badly… I guess, anger and alcohol bring out what are not normally and would never like to be…
          Completely my views, though… I’m open to discussion… I would love to hear what others feel

          1. someone16sh says:

            I think Anger brings out the truth that people hide . Anger is the result of our negative thoughts running in mind. When we become calm , we actually wonder “i shouldn’t have done/said this ..”we regret it later . Hence it bring out the worst + clear all your doubt that you build inside your mind .

      2. Chendubundu says:

        yes! we tend to dump our anger on soft targets – our loved ones, but as you said, though his anger was justified, his words aren’t. Not everyone is capable of thinking rationally while angry. I get what Manik was thinking at that point of time – he lost his family in a moment, cant take sides on who is right or wrong – only thing that is true is both are hurt and Nandini a little more

  43. nice update di. women are always mature in every situation. for her MIL she fighted. but these men treats them like trash whenever they are in good terms with his family she is good. manik is not only case. there are so many maniks and nandini. this is what scare me or i thinks every girl that not everyone will get opportunity to explain. this was chapter with bundle of emotions and reality

    1. Manita V says:

      Yes… women are usually mature and keep enduring the pain till they are able to tolerate… but men label them as demanding/ attention-seeking/ difficult/ and hyper…
      I mean, most men do…

  44. Sujata says:

    This feels to have touched a place in my heart. I suffered from depression few years ago. Whatever doctors said came to me. As, the doctor I consulted wasn’t much helpful. It didn’t feel he was asking me the right questions. He always tried to find something that wasn’t there in my symptoms.

    I left going there. After a year, I felt like I want empty anymore. I thought I conqured my sadness but it yet comes time to time like a huge wave. I am just thankful that it isn’t always present in me anymore.

    The experience also made me more emotionally tolerant. This year my semester was hectic and We had a verbally abusive professor but I wasn’t effected as my other classmates were. I don’t know what to conclude about myself about this data.

    Hope you have a nice day di.
    Love.

    1. Manita V says:

      Hugs and loads of love for you Sujata.
      The way you have learnt to deal with depression is commendable. I agree it makes you so numb that more shattering experiences stop troubling the person anymore.
      Stay strong. Whenever you feel sad, just don’t let your low mood overwhelm you.
      We are all here… if you want to talk… anytime!

      Take care!

      1. gauti reshsha says:

        Love you loads..take care sujatha..we will still survive…

        1. Sujata says:

          Love to you too di. Yes we would survive by just being there for each other.
          Love
          Sujata

      2. Sujata says:

        Thanks di, for the concern as I feel I have come ahead of it. Hopefully, I wouldn’t feel that I am in that hole again but would always just climb out of it slowly like I am doing for years. I feel like now it is a part of my life and it would always be there.

        It used to get harder as My family couldn’t understand why I was like that. It took them a lot of time to understand what depression was.

        Hopefully, Manik’s mother would also tackle it with her family understanding and support as it is sometimes hard for the family to understand. In my case, it took them a longer time than me to understand what was going on.

        Have a nice year ahead, di with you first literary baby being published.

        Love
        Sujata

  45. Aasma says:

    At work will try and comment later, but wooow to the update lool
    X

    1. Manita V says:

      haha… I’m waiting!

  46. Tanvie Sharma 🌼 says:

    INandani is really hurt this time though I’m really enjoying this twist in the story😁
    Poor Manik. 😌
    Thank you so much for the update Di.
    Stay blessed ❤

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you Tanvie. It feels so good to see the names in comments and that makes me relate to you and your past comments.
      It’s like a connection.
      Thank you for all the previous comments as I couldn’t reply you on the last update 🙂

      1. Tanvie Sharma 🌼 says:

        It’s totally fine Di! We know you have a busy life still you try to reply all of us. That’s so sweet.
        We just comment to tell you that how we analyze you writing taking it deeply into our thoughts.😂
        You read them that is enough for me. 😊

        1. Manita V says:

          I just don’t read the comments… I read them again and associate with the writer… It feels great to have you relate to the emotions and write about it and that is why I try to reply and interact. Thrills me as much as you 🙂

  47. sumaia sara says:

    I was so eagerly waiting for update 😁
    I am so glad that now they all got to know about Latika conditions and I hope Latika will too understand and will take help.
    I don’t know should I feel bad for Manik or feel angry to hurt him but boy is in deep issue one side he is guilty to run away from his family that he fail to notice the dark side of her mother went through other side he is hurt and morw guilty to hurt Nandini,But I hope he will try to explain his situation to Nandini instead keep feeling that he isn’t good in explaining. I am waiting for them to talk about it and Nandini reaction she was totally into Latika that she might didn’t even feel about her heartbreaking poor girl.

    1. Manita V says:

      Loved loved loved your comment… so beautifully you have explained them both… they are both hurt and they are not even together to be healed out of this situation.

  48. Sudha Tammana says:

    Nandini reminds me of myself, holding pain inside but fulfilling Responsibilities completely but no one realises the effort it takes whatever written in the update is how most mentally ill patients are and so are their families

    1. Manita V says:

      I hope I was able to justify the pain of the sufferer, the care-giver and the rest of the family, some of which are not even aware of the issue.
      More power to you Sudha! You are a STRONG GIRL!!!

      My prayers for you!
      Take care. Love.

      1. Sudha Tammana says:

        Thank u so much di if I can call u that and yes u justified it very dearly and yes I don’t believe in giving up ever thank u ure a sweetheart

  49. stelitoes11 says:

    Wonderful update loved it

    1. Manita V says:

      Thank you dear 🙂

  50. lovelyrashu says:

    Such an emotional update and nandini’s state brought tears in my eyes. And you had written beautiful description of depressed patients, perks of being a doctor 😉. It was due to manoj’s and Gauri negligence atleast they could have consult a doctor when she was hospitalized both the times and maybe the doctor could identify the symptoms. I really felt bad for manik to he must be feeling like an outsider who wasn’t aware of what goes in his family during his absence. Regardless manik’s impulsiveness brought him here where he can’t talk to that one person who can calm the storm in his mind and bring him peace. Hope nandini doesn’t forgive him that easily, she could portray the role of good daughter in law and wife by being distant from him so that he don’t take her forgranted.

    1. Manita V says:

      True. If Gaurvi and Manoj had talked to someone at that time, instead of calling it a attention-seeking behaviour, maybe Latika would have been in a better state of mind.
      And maybe, if Manik knew about those suicide attempts, he would have never been distant from his mom, not worsened her condition unknowingly, helped her in getting treated and listened to Nandini without reacting so harshly.
      Communication is so important!

      1. lovelyrashu says:

        But still make nandini give him hard time as otherwise its always other way around. 😉

        1. Manita V says:

          Absolutely! This was not something casual that she has to understand him.

  51. mayishafairuz says:

    So much is happening. Idk what would i do if i was in the place of Nandini’s. She is very sensible & handel every situation perfectly. Manik you need to try hard this time, you mess a big time🙂

    1. Manita V says:

      Yes… Manik needs to realise that you are not allowed to lose your mind in anger.

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