I’m sorry for going silent for a couple of days.
I have been going through a tough patch in my personal life, almost a crisis, since some time now. I was hoping for the light to see the day but it didn’t. And the hardships continued. Sometimes, the struggle continues for long…
I was trying my best and I was holding up to be strong for a long time but there is an end to everything and there comes a time when you are not sure if you are still strong or you have become so immune that problems have stopped affecting you. You start responding to the surroundings with a crocodile hide on your back but that is just a coping mechanism – ignoring issues and assuming that they have disappeared. When in reality they are still there. To catch you unawares at the slightest of a dull moment.
I’m not sure if I am making any sense. But last few days were such days and so I stopped interacting much for the fear of spilling over any gloom to people around me. I didn’t want to trouble anyone. So, I didn’t talk unless someone needed me. I needed some time to cope up before I start posting again.
We take some time but we sure get past every difficult thing troubling us!!
I look back and feel grateful for the little rays of sunshine in my life – My family… my two lovely kids who look at me with a hopeful smile and make me feel like I need nothing else in life… my parents, with whom I can talk about anything and everything in life… my profession, where I get to meet people who need me and when I talk to them, I feel a sense of purpose and achievement… and exactly the same I feel, when I write something and talk to all of you.
So these are my coping mechanisms –
~ When the situation is still controllable, I pretend that everything is fine and keep struggling to correct them… and I keep writing…
~ When I feel strong no more, I become silent, withdraw myself from everyone and even from people who love me… it happens for a few days… then my family overwhelms me with love… I rebound back and I go back to writing…
~ When things are not in my hand, I write extensively as that keeps me sane and helps me deal with my tough times.
My kids and my parents are my rays of sunshine. Writing is my solace on a deeper level.
One more thing about my online presence –
1. Whenever I am absent for a 1-2 days only – Assume that I am busy 🙂
2. If I am absent for a few days or present here and there but not interacting much – Assume that either I am sick or going through a difficult phase. Wait for some time. I recover on my own and get back on my feet.
3. If I am absent for more than one month – Then, I am definitely dead 😀
I am dealing with my issues. Please don’t ask about it as it is painful to discuss and share. What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger. You fall, you struggle, you get up and get going all over again, till you fall again – This is life!!
And no one is exempted from this pain. All of us have to go through this!
Love you all
Take care. Stay blessed.
~ Tell me in the comments – about everything that keeps you going during a crisis. Everything that helps you deal with stress i.e. Your coping mechanisms… Your rays of sunshine during a tough patch!
~ I will start updating regularly from tomorrow 🙂